Recognize the supreme light. In this point the person is dissolved into nothingness, the void is achieved. If one is prepared to let go of all attachments, one can recognize the change that is about to take place. Those who are ready can be in this state for a long time, those who aren’t shuffle through the state in a blink. Earth sinks into water. Water sinks into fire. Fire sinks into air. One though, one idea of ego will take you away from this state, back into rebirth. You might feel the kundalini energy and try to control it. Don’t. Let it flow. Sink back into unawareness. Feel, but not as one isolated part, feel as if you were all parts. Move, but not against other parts. Move as one, infinite, complete.
I share here these notes of mine that I don’t remember now if I got from listening a podcast or watching a youtube video, but I’m doing some housekeeping and the notebook has to be thrown away. I think they are useful and I want to keep them and share them for other people.
Books are repositories of ideas. Maybe they are even alive! Who knows. I have heard of people mentioning that certain books have spirits that you can actually invoke and chat with. For example I remember reading somebody online claiming that the spirit that inhabited the New Avatar Power books had told them that the power it contained was no longer usable, and that it was no longer as effective as it was 20 or 30 years ago. If attention is power, perhaps when the books are known the most, that is when their spells are the most effective, or their knowledge is the most wise.
Here is what my notes say about preparing to read a book. Again, not my original ideas.
Have the author’s name and author’s title printed each on one page, with no other text apart from the names. Stare at them for a little while. What do you think the person looks like? What is his character? Read the author’s name out loud and imagine what they put in the book. What does the title tell you about the content?
Peruse the table of content carefully and slowly. Go from the top to bottom. Absorb the headlines and the basic structure of the book. How do you want to feel at the end?
Feel like the knowledge is food. You have seen the table of contents, now you need to feel hungry for the words. Gaze at the title again, imagine it shining like a sigil. Trace it in the air.
Visualize yourself sitting (or standing, or lying down) reading the book and absorbing the hidden meanings, what hides between the lines. Absorb the concepts from beyond that which is clear. See beyond sight.
Take this visualization into a sphere, make it clear in your third eye, see yourself turning the last page of the book. It is done!
Now you can start reading!
There’s one last part that I don’t understand but I include here in case somebody does.
7. Fold page. Put it out of your view. Consecrate with your blood.
I’m wondering which page do you fold? The title? Why? Put what out of view, the whole book? Consecrate with your blood I guess just means adding a bit of blood maybe to the cover or something I would do would be smear blood over the side of the book, like when you close the book, paint the sides with a colored marker, and then open it again to find a nice colored square around each page. Like that, but blood.
If you are interested in mushrooms and micology, specially in magical mushrooms, you will quickly learn about Terence McKenna and his trippy adventures. There is a myriad of youtube videos available of his talks, and me, having sat through hours and hours of his these audio lectures, started to consider that I needed to actually read some of his written works. I decided to start with True Hallucinations, perhaps his most well-known work to this date (and possibly forever since he is already dead). This here is my short summary and accompanying thoughts.
What is True Hallucinations? Well, as it turns out, when he was a young lad Terence McKenna traveled to a location in Colombia (of all countries!) called La Chorrera. A chorro is a stream of water and in Colombia, at least until a few years ago, the gross of the laypeople would enjoy occasional Paseos de olla, a pot hike, a hikking/cooking adventure that involved carrying a big pot and lots of food to a nearby river or stream, taking a swim and then cooking chicken soup. Sancocho is the name of our most popular chicken soup. Boy I miss those hikes! This tradition I believe (or rather, I came to conclude) was inherited from similar events that the indigenous people would organize to commemorate special events or to kickstart the hunting season. One thing I remember particularly from these hikes was how well defined the gender roles were. Men would usually take their bicycles and bike to the destination (taking a longer or steeper route, because well, they were men and needed to make things more difficult) while women would take the children and the cooking supplies and just walk or drive, when there were enough cars for everybody. The two groups would eventually come to meet at the chosen destination; the men would smoke and take a swim, the children would play, and the women would prepare the food and cook. Anecdotically, in one of these trips a biker had an accident and injured his leg, which was bleeding when he arrived to the river side. He was crying when they brought him, and I remember a woman looking at us, eyes opened like saucers, surprised that this man was crying. “He’s crying!” she said. As if men were not supposed to cry. Coming to think of it, my mother always complained about these women. She said they were boring and just knew how to gossip.
Anyway, McKenna and four of his friends (including his brother Dennis) decide to visit the Colombian deep jungle to find this hallucinogen substance used by the Witoto, but when they end up finding lots of cubensis mushrooms (note that this was in the 70s, when not a lot of species were classified) they decided that the psychedelic experience brought about by this fungi was well worth exploring and dropping the Witoto quest altogether.
Out of the group of 5, two people eventually end up finding the experience not so enjoyable and they sort of split and not much is told about these two participants and their experiences (it would seem they just didn’t really take part of the mushroom consumption). The remaining 3 (Terence, his brother Dennis and Terence’s lover Ev) continue eating the cubensis mushrooms, with Dennis being the one let’s say more mentally touched by the experience. So much in fact that Terence himself seems to have been worried at the time that his brother had lost his mind during his foray into the unknown.
So, what can learn from these wild adventurers? First, according to McKenna’s report on the message transmitted by it, the mushroom is an intergalactic, or extra-terrestrial, or extra-dimensional, entity older than the planet is old itself, massive in size and in strangeness. The mushroom entity propagates its own existence disseminating spores into deep space, traveling enormous distances to find suitable host planets with animals and life. Although it is not specifically mentioned in this book, McKenna’s theory of “stoned apes” attributes the evolution of the human brain and the human mind to the consumption of psychedelic mushrooms. The mental states that the mushrooms induces on the subject, he theorizes, could account for deep-thinking and self-reflective ideas that would have helped little monkeys get an evolutionary boost in the race for survival. Does it make sense? Possibly. With the resurgence of psychedelics and specially of microdosing, we see people claiming that the constant ingestion of small amounts of mushrooms helps them achieve mental ludicity and feel more creatively inspired. MRI scans show that under the action of psylocibin, parts of the brain which are normally disconnected start to speak to each other (see link ). So, is it plausible to think that some wild monkeys eating mushrooms, hallucinating and learning new brain behaviour, ended up becoming the human species that we are today? It certainly is plausible. Probable? that’s a different matter.
Now, about the nature of the mushroom entity. McKenna says that the entity revealed itself as spreading through time and space using spores and communicating to creatures who eat the mushrooms and were epistemologically prepared to understand the message. This is not much different from what Carlos Castaneda already claimed in his The teachings of Don Juan. In this book, he claims that the spirit of the mescaline molecule, which is called mescalito, communicates and shows itself to a disconcerted (and quite out of his mind) Castaneda. The Datura plant is also referred to as having a spirit inside, which is of a more femenine nature and quite difficult to tame, or to work with. Datura is known as hierba del diablo, the devil’s weed, and it is famous for taking its user to a very difficult hallucinogenic mindspace. Next to these two characters, the spirit of the mushrooms seems quite noble and amiable.
Another thing that McKenna explores in this book is his theory of Timewave Zero. As far as I understand, he argues that the universe fluctuates between high novelty and low novelty periods, and the arrangement of these events he claims matches a fractal pattern that one can discover by analyzing the arrangement of the I Ching hexagrams. This is the most confusing part of the book, and I will need to read more on this timewave and actually get to use the software he designed for studying it. If the world indeed follows a pattern, it might be useful to know where in that pattern we are positioned at any given moment. It might even help you understand where you will be in the near future, even if it’s simply in terms of “there will be a great novelty wave on January the 1st”. Kinda like what you do with astrology. “Tonight you find venus in conjunction with mercury so you should buy a red dress.” Kinda.
True Hallucinations is a story of a man who went to the forest with a couple friends, took a lot of mushrooms and came up with strange ideas. The strange ideas are difficult to grasp from this book alone, and as far as trip reports go, McKenna’s stories are not particularly alluring. To me, a few ideas were novel: the idea of using sound to alter DNA, and the idea that the mushroom itself is a conduit to communicate with higher-level creatures which hide behind a veil of strangeness.
Don’t waste time doing things which don’t help you learn.
Friends and parties are fun but fun doesn’t make you wealthy. Focus on learning, focus on knowledge, learn more, read more, think only about the things that you can learn, the books you have been wanting to read for years, the many lessons that you are going to learn, the knowledge to acquire.
Other people are only gonna get in the way. They are only going to hinder you. Because they don’t want to evolve, they don’t want to learn, they will just try to make you waste your time. They just want to waste their time because they don’t know how valuable it is. You should be smarter than them. It might feel like a big sacrifice to make when you see them laughing and posting pictures of their happy times on Facebook, but remember always that those are shallow experiences devoid of any real meaning. Everybody is having shallow moments of happiness, it’s not a big accomplishment to have a lot of friends and party all the time. Being wise and knowing a lot of things is what you work towards.
Four or five years ago, I sold my bitcoin balance to move to Barcelona because I thought it was going to be a great experience. At the time, bitcoin was around $400 and having bought at $200 I felt I had made the deal of a lifetime. I could have now more than $50,000 worth of digital gold, but I made the decision to sell and use the money to live in a different place.
Now in 2019 I am forced to sell again part of my bitcoin balance in order to pay for the documents I need to live and work in Vietnam. And I ask myself. Am I not making the same mistake again? I did not want to sell my bitcoins before moving to Barcelona but I thought that it was going to be the time of my life. It wasn’t. I came to Vietnam with hopes and dreams and I found nothing special. I tell myself “I like Vietnam” but perhaps it is only because I don’t want to admit that, in fact, I don’t like it. You invest time into something and then you have to pretend it was a great idea.
Was Vietnam a great idea? I am starting to believe it wasn’t. I’m not getting paid well, I’m not making any progresses in my spiritual path, I haven’t found my sangha. For all it’s worth, I might as well just have stayed in Colombia. Well, except for the violence. I don’t like violence.
If I understand correctly, psychedelics bring us to altered states of consciousness that are also possible to be achieved simply through the application of training and will power. Sit cross-legged for a long enough time and you will start to hallucinate colors and sounds. Do it in a pitch-black room and you will hallucinate with opened eyes. Do it while you’re floating in a sensory deprivation tank and you will hallucinate colors, shapes and faces.
Yet, why do mystics and some let’s say “traditional” seekers refuse to acknowledge the validity of the psychedelic experience? For some people, it seems “no pain – no gain” works as a bidirectional formula. If you achieve something but you didn’t sweat blood for it, then they consider it as less valid of an achievement. Why, though?
Do monks still copy books by hand? Do these people still walk long distances to communicate with other people, or have they also embraced the advantages of long-distance telecommunication? Why is it different when it comes to mental processes? Yes, they say, psychedelics will bring you to a reality similar to what you can explore using only the power of your sober mind. But they argue, what if you don’t have psychedelics? You go back to base camp. You are not quite there yet, you are only “simulating” the experience. But in these day and age, we can ensure a constant and regular supply of these substances for everyone who is interested. Hell, I could grow in my house more mushrooms that I could consume, for an insignificant amount of money. Why couldn’t I simply eat 1g of mushrooms every time I wanted to have a profound mystical experience? Why does it have to be always your own power, your own self, your own work? Why can’t we work together with the plants?
Isn’t the world interconnected? Aren’t we operating in a matrix of relationships that extends beyond our mind, beyond our life, beyond our death? Why aren’t mushrooms my friends?
Begun reading on: 2019-08-11 First heard about this book on: Occult Science Radio podcast
1 – Introduction
“Meta-magick is a collection of opportunities to think about magick”. This book tries to strip magick out of its…well, magic? Or confusion. Like scientists building models and metaphors to explain the physical world, meta-magick builds models and metaphors about magick.
2- Chapter 1: States of Consciousness
Exercise 1.1 Physiological calibration: Just run through all the questions related to your body. Where are you? What is your position? How do your legs feel? Arms, head, shoulders? How is your breathing? How fast is your heart beating? Which muscles are tense, which muscles are relaxed? Next do some expansion and contraction breathing. Just imagine when you inhale a circle expands to reach the diameter of your open arms, and when you exhale the circle contracts until it becomes on single point on the center of your chest. Repeat for five minutes and then reassess your physiological condition.
Incidentally, today I will get paid! This is a most happy day.
Chapter 1 – Shamanism and Dreams
Do dreams and the activity of have any meaning or purpose? Why and under which cultural discourse do we ask this question? A common theme in Buddhist narratives is to reduce the dream to a mere illusion, unreal and deceptive yet at the same time to acknowledge the importance of dreaming actively and interpreting dreams.
Have you not read Sutras and many Tantras? Dreams are unreal and deceptive, as was taught By Buddha Himself, in the Final Truth of Paramita To collect, supply, and study them Will bring little profit …. And yet, your dreams were marvelous Wondrous omens foretelling things to come I, the Yogi, have mastered the art of dreams And will explain their magic to you
Shamanism generally emphasizes a balance of power and holds to the idea that evil cannot, and indeed should not, be ultimately eradicated. Introduction to the author’s view of shamanism. Shamanism as a social function. Principles of shamanism – existence of multiple realities, ability of the shaman to communicate with these realities, shamans serving their communities.
Reality responds to the interpretation and beliefs of the person. Man and nature “…elaborate each other in a back-and-forth process“. “Macrocosm and microcosm form a single continuum folding in upon itself…” as within, so without. Places are not magical: they are made magical by the interaction of humans with their environment. Often as a result of magical struggle. Reality is a struggle between the forces of good and evil, with no real victor. “I will put frogs and turtles into victims, you will cure them…throughout the world, I’ll cause illness, you’ll cure it, don’t kill me“. “If a shaman could completely get rid of shurkul [devils], everything would lose balance“.
“…two themes common to many shamanisms: the recognition that the power to protect is inseparable from the power to destroy, and the idea that creative energy is generated by worship—that passionate attention to an object articulated in ritual.” “Through ritual, the world is consulted, hidden correspondences emerge, and deities are born; reality is created and transformed”
Dreamworlds allow the shaman to leave the physical body and explore the world of the dead and the ancestors. Mountains as high thrones for the spirits or the places where the earth joins the heaven. Many legends tell about kings that came from the mountain tops or went there to ascend to the spirit world. Is there a reality to the power of mountains or is it just humans attributing an elevated nature to things that are high? Why not both?
Everybody dreams, but not everybody can gain control of the dreamworld. The strenght of the shaman is in the use of the ordinary to achieve the extraordinary. Characteristics similar among different shamanisms across the world:
Using dreams to leave the physical body
Using familiars and helping spirits
Making deals with these spirits
Traveling to other real locations using the dreamworld
Gaining knowledge from these travels
Chapter 2 – Dream in the ancient Indian matrix
Examining the similarities between sleep in a shamanistic environment and buddhist practices from India and other asian countries.
The vedas. Conception of life as a place of struggle. Maya, as illusion or as creative power, transformation. The vedas seem to talk about sleep as an enemy of life. In sleep, we are dead. “Sleep is the bringer of evil, the evil itself, and the protector from evil“. Upanisads. From dreams the self can perceive this world and the other. (Most of us inhabit at least two worlds…). All prana comes from the Atman. ‘The real behind the real’. The breath of the bones? “In comparison to the true nature of the self, waking is no less a state of sleep than the others.” In dreams, a world is created. Even our world, according to later indian myths, is created in Vishnu’s dream. The irreality of the dream world reveals the irreality of the “real” world itself. It dreams are unreal yet feel so real, what can we think about our “real” reality?
Chapter 3 – Indian Buddhist views of dreams
Buddhism is not in conflict with shamanism and it also recognizes the existence of spirits and teaches of many methods to communicate with or exorcise these spirits. Differences lie on other issues such as the existence of the permanent essence of man, the Atman. Are dreams presentative, or representative? Classification of dreams, based on their origin. From pathological disorder, impressions of the subconscious mind, or external agents. Dreams often acquire meaning depending on the character of the person who is dreaming. That is to say, the layperson’s dreams are just illusory images. The yogi’s dreams are significant and hold much more value. In some cases, it is said that enlightened beings don’t dream at all (as they are beyond the control of the god of dream). It is not necessarily the content of the dream but rather the moral condition of the dreamer which gives a dream its condition of being a good or a bad omen. In shamanistic contexts, dreaming represents the accomplishment of the dreamer, which has control over this state. In buddhist context, dreams represent that the goal of realization is still ahead (as dreams are illusory, the dreamer is still trapped in the illusion of Maya). In terms of eltie/popular division, there seems to be no clear separation about the value of dreams. In some cases, elites use dream interpretation to prepare for life, whereas laypeople disregard dreams as purely illusory, and viceversa. There seems to be no clear contradiction between the two classes.
Chapter 4 – Dream in the Tibetan context
In buddhism, dream as a mental state is a subjective experience and lacks the significance given to it in shamanistic or Indian thought. Tantra as a dynamic system adopted by tibetans, a system “to expose oneself to even the most dangerous and powerful […] universal forces and not just survive, but actually control them and absorb them for one’s own fulfillment”.
The first buddhist texts, legend says, fell from the sky and were not understood for 500 years but were preserved because prophecy had been received about their importance. Tibetan Bon priests did not quite like Buddhism (obviously, it was a threat to their own system). Spiritual forces from Tibet were conquered by Padmasambhava and even today they need to be reminded that they are bound by promise to defend the dharma, and are to be treated with utmost caution. The shaman identifies with a spirit as a realization of the true nature of the spirit world that he has access to. The lama, on the contrary, is capable of identifying with the spirit, having reached an understanding of the illusory nature of this spirit world, and has control over it as he has control over all other mental faculties. One big difference between yogis/lamas and shamans is that the latter do not aim to reach any specific state of enlightenment. Their idea is not to exit the world altogether but rather to work with it and serve their communities.
In the lineage of Naropa and Tilopa, dream became an opportunity for the yogi to establish control over his mental processes, and recognize the insubstantial nature of these mental states (even buddhahood!) after having acquired full control over the unraveling of the situations encountered while dreaming. Look into the mirror of your mind, the place of dreams, the mysterious home of the dakini – Tilopa. To some extent, the ability to perform magic is not dependent upon actual powers but upon the realization that all reality is illusory and created by the yogin. Dream is the best metaphor for life, and through manipulation of this metaphorical reality we come to understand better the nature of life itself.
Traditionally, divination has not been entirely accepted in Buddhism as a morally sound practice. Divinators are usually considered by the sangha to be of a lesser class than the monks or nuns. According to a contemporary Tibetan lama, the difference between the lamam and the shamam is that the former relies on the triple gem as source for its power, while the latter uses earthly deities and powers to affect reality. The lamam has boddhicitta. A shamam and a lamam both have power to kill an animal, but only the lamam with his inconmesurable compassion has the power to bring it back to life.
In shaman traditions, there is no soteriological component to the practices or to the use of dreams. The buddhist concept of “enlightenment” as salvation from the human condition is usually not present. This idea would fall on one side of the spectrum of existence, and shamans seem to be mostly walking on the line between the two extremes (salvation and human life)
Chapter 5 – Tibetan Dream Theory, Imagery and Interpretation
Dreams are illusions, and through the elimination or purification of these states we can come to an understanding of the illusory condition of waking life. Depending on the dream phase in which these dreams appear, they are thought to be caused by karmic traces (first stage, before midnight), external entities or spirits (after midnight) and clarity of the dreamer’s mind (last dreams before waking up). Of these three, usually only the third type is considered to be useful and truthful enough to be interpreted.
According to tantric medicine, physicians should pay attention to omens in places such as the house of the patient or on the road itself. Signs of decay or recovery found in the vicinity can be used to divine the outcome of the healing process. (I skipped reading the list of auspicious/favorable dreams because I felt I didn’t want to have preconceived ideas as to the meaning of any dreams I might have).
In Tibetan buddhism, before engaging in visualization or mantra practices one needs to get the initiation from a guru to obtain permission from the desired deity. Usually this initiation is confirmed to have been successful by means of auspicious dreams or visions. In some cases, dreams are ways to obtain new knowledge or relics left by previous yogis. Padmasambhava is known to have left instructions that after his departing, termas or hidden secrets would be revealed by him through special treasure revealers (terton).
Tendrel, the interconnection of all things. Dependance. The cry of the crow has a meaning. Everything is connected, so everything relates to everything else. Only when you pay attention you start to find these connections.
When we meditate upon the illusion-like nature Of all the illusion-like phenomena We attain illusion-like buddhahood